I'm the reason why Cliffs Notes were invented

Today, I went for coffee on my day off to do a little work on a training thing I'm putting together for my colleagues on Student Development. I bopped in to Safeway for my weekly grocery trip on my way home and as I was walking in my apt. door, I panicked and thought, "I'm a fricking yuppie!"

Yep. Picture it: I was carrying my leftover coffee and my groceries in their re-usable canvas bags after I locked up my Civic. As soon as I got in the door, I kicked off clogs, plugged in my cell phone, took my iPod out of my purse, and sat down to my Mac to check my e-mail. Man, I am too trendy. Ugh.

Now I'm going to heat up my leftover latte and sit down to read Harry Potter 5. That's not trendy. If I was re-reading book 6 in preparation for book 7 coming out this summer, now THAT may be trendy. :) Not that there's anything wrong with that.

Thank goodness for Presidents Day off work today! Hasn't happened to me since, what, 1992?

cool quote

I just remembered this great quote that's on top of my fridge in a frame. I have the book, so I'm gonna reread it.

"...I would like to beg you, dear Sir, as well to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don't search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer."
--Rainer Maria Rilke, Letters to a Young Poet

calmer waters

I've calmed down a bit since my apple rant. my job is a bit tiring, but as the weekend approaches, things are looking up. make no mistake, i like my job still. it's just tough and sometimes i'm not sure if it's where i'm supposed to be. especially the last few weeks.

i'm still not really excited about my apple experience. i am toying with the idea of returning my ipod and speaker and saving my money to purchase the same things after i get a new computer. i also may keep the ipod and put my music on my work computer and just sync it there. but those two options mean i lose my $140. so maybe i will buy a little memory and speed my computer up a bit. this weekend, i think i'll go to the apple service place and see what that would cost and if it would solve things.

i do think i may be learning a little lesson on materialism. i think it's time to do some purging of belongings and refocus myself so as not to be so attached to the material. simple living was something i was aiming for at one time, so maybe this is just a reminder of that.

p.s.

i'm sort of overwhelmed with my "calling" and if i'm supposed to be where i am right now career-wise, so big irritations like this are EXTREMELY big right now. and also i'm poor and can't afford to throw away any amount of cash, especially when it has 2 or more zeros at the end. why does stuff like this always happen to me and not to the people who can afford it?

i know my blog readers won't judge my emotional outbursts. thanks for listening.

i hate apple

i hate apple. they are taking so much money from me. i got an ipod for christmas and i still can't use it. i have ordered an upgrade of software so that i can upgrade itunes, and then it came as a DVD. some people don't have DVD players because your computers are actually good and last long and some of us didn't think it was important to pay an extra $600 for it in 2001.

so there was this software exchange deal to get CD-roms, and after finally getting my CD-Roms that I paid an extra $9.95 plus postage to get, i now find out i don't have enough free memory to install it. so now i get to spend, what, $500 or more to get 3 GB of memory so i can install OS X Tiger and get the upgraded itunes. and i don't even know where to get memory if i could even afford it. do i have that money? no. do i want to use my expensive christmas present that was so thoughtfully and kindly purchased by my parents? yes. would i rather get a new computer than spend little amounts on upgrading? yes. can i afford that? no. do i want to just chuck and break all of this stupid technology that rules our lives and makes us all materialistic? YES!

UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i have converted like 5 people into Mac users and now i am pissed off and want to tell them all to change back, that they're just going to get robbed in 5 years after they have been all loyal to them.