creating

sometimes, i wonder if i'd have less ocd if i just sat down and created again.

and then i say that it feels too hard,

or i don't have time,

or i'm not inspired,

but deep down i know it's that i worry that i'm not any good

because when i do sit down,

i'm rusty

and my hand doesn't flow across the page the way it used to

and the lines don't look right

and it all just feels

flat and numb. 

my inner self says i'm not good enough,

but we all know that's a lie.

i am an artist.

in 2010, i'm going to find the weapon that slays those lies.

(photo from http://postsecret.blogspot.com)